Woorldd, please help me. Could you?

I’m not rich, I’m not good-looking. And umm, I’m not smart enough.

If I rich, I’ll invest, learn business from my parent, or just chill out and enjoying my whole life.

If I am a good-looking person, I’ll be model, influencer, selebgram, actor, or join the onlyfans.

The problem is, I think that I’m not smart but at the same time I think that I’m smart. And the conclusion is I’m not smart enough.

If I’m not smart, THE UNIVERSE WILL DESTROY ME, WILL RUIN MY LIFE.

I wish I was born as good-looking, smart, RICH, well educated, and ofc well mannered. I know that’s impossible, like proverb “Cebol Nggayuh Lintang” in Javanese language and culture.

I wish someday I can continue my master study in CRCS UGM, then I being an international lecturer, and have an aesthetic kos-kosan (idk what is kos-kosan in English wkwk). And I wish I have an apartement with Han River for the background.

Omg, I’m so obsessed with “Start-Up” kdrama

Tuhan, tolong aku
Apa yang harus aku lakukan
Sepertinya semesta tidak adil huehue

Nadin Amizah, the Indonesian singer said “Bun, hidup berjalan seperti bajingan” in her song “Bertaut”. (“Momz, life goes on like shit”)

And I have to agree with her, but that’s so rough. Maybe “Bun, hidup berjalan mengambang seperti eek di kali”

just for this, don’t follow me. I’m pessimistic for my future.

Butterfly hug for meeeee ❤